February 25, 2018
My world needs to be much much bigger than it is now. Right now it’s all about me and my selfishness and my need and my emptiness. I need to get the focus off of me and onto helping people who need help.
Losing these jobs the last couple of years has been the best thing that ever could’ve happened. I didn’t know it before, I didn’t see it before, but I’m not meant to strive for positions of power and a high income. That does not line up with my value system. There’s nothing wrong with wanting to achieve career success. But now, I want to leave a different kind of legacy.
Seeking career and financial success was really important to me for a really long time and I rode the wave successfully for a really long time. But either I’ve changed, or I’m becoming the person I was intended to become. I am more than I was. I always was more, I just didn’t see it. I guess sometimes you have to get dragged through hell for a couple years before you get the picture.
I Persevere. And life goes on.
“The two most important days in your life are the day you are born and the day you find out why.” -Mark Twain