July 17, 2019
The movers are clearing out my Louisville studio tomorrow. I think about Louisville now, and it seems like I imagined it. A dream. Surreal.
For a time, I was transported to another world. I lived a completely different life. A completely unanticipated existence. One that was filled with ecstasy beyond imagining, coupled with unfathomable pain. If I pause to quantify, there was more pain than bliss. Without doubt.
Pain has followed me here. Of course she has! She lives inside of me.
I can live with Pain. If I can experience the joy of living again. Joy, no matter how infrequent, kills Pain. Ever so slowly, yet undeniably.
Pain may live inside. But when Pain sleeps, I see she’ll never own all of me. She cannot take me. She will not prevail. The battle is already won. I am assured.
I Persevere. And life goes on.